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life

OCD: a toxic disorder

OCD: Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Whose fault is this? Why it occurs? How it captures the mind? And many more questions.

Does anybody anyone question about it?

Ya it’s not a Cancer but it’s not less than that. OCD comes silently. Very silently. Shhhhh….. Pin drop silence inside the mind. But outside, outside; Chaos of every kind. Suffering of every kind. Tension of every kind. Failure, failure; in studies, in communication, in self presentation, in exploring yourself, exploring life, failure in love life, failure in looking good, failure in curricular activities. Disappointment of self, disappointment of parents. Harsh words just play in repeat mode inside the mind.

Earthquake, tsunami, low pressure, high pressure, tornado ; every kind of hazardous things just taken place inside your mind. The whirlwind of intrusive thoughts never let you be calm. The magma of obsessive thought drowns you deeper. You only get suffocated. Every ounce of your heart get choked. With every beat of heart you crave for peace. And peace just play different kinds of game with you to come you. Like a druggist searches for drugs. You search for peace. You search for sleep. But sleep, sleep slaps on your face and bid farewell to you.

Somehow if you get sleep the venomous dreams won’t let you sleep peacefully. If you want to read good books, the poisonous thought toxicate everything. Cyclone super cyclone of thoughts shake you terrible.

You shiver…

You quiver…

You yell

Loud…..

Louder…..

For someone come and save you.

Something inside you killing you badly. Something inside you stabbing you badly. But you’re unable to find out. You’re unable to find out the reason behind reasons. The question among questions. Again confusion. What is the question? What is the answer? And why is the question?

After asking enormous questions to self , after getting lots of answers yet you don’t get the answer. You just suffer

Just suffer

Just suffer

But the puzzled mind never stops thinking. We can say in a different way, thoughts never let mind to be stopped.

(It’s just a kind request to everyone, whenever you see anyone with OCD, just pat him/her and say them; It’s just a disease. And lend them a hand to stand up and move on.)

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love

You are

You’re ice to my coke
You’re the hidden pleasure in my talk.

You’re the spark in my eyes
You’re the blush on my chicks.

Unreasonable smile
In stomach countless butterflies
Yes you’re the collection of fireflies.

In the heart of my wild Woods
You’re the wildflower
Which flourished
To make my heart smile and eyes shine.

️(♡ω♡ ) ~♪

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letters life life tales love

Some day someone…..

Someday someone will come and hold you without holding you. Someone will enjoy the fluttering of butterflies the way you enjoyed before. He will crave for your presence. Will crave for your little smile. A normal line of tension on your face make him so tensed. Will enjoy your immature behavior. Mark the way you talk, the way you drive. Will feel nervous to have convo with you. But when that happen he will be the super happier. Will take care of your nervousness too.



Your smiles have impact on him, your tears also. In fact your giggles and sobs too. He will take care of your little to little necessities also worthless demands too. Someday someone will wish you in his life. Someday you’ll be someone’s prayer. Your good health will be 1st priority of someone except your mother. Except your family you Will be someone’s reason of life.



He will just come and hug your soul that comfortably, your sorrows, heart break, pains, ifs and buts, bunch of question marks will be melted down. He will introduce you to the hidden you inside you. He will teach you to love yourself again. Without your permission he will take you to the land free from fear negativities unnecessary thoughts. Without your permission he will be a part of your everything, every emotions. Your aches will be eradicated your fears too. Only bliss will be all around your, with someone for whom you’re a pure form of blessings.



Yes he will come unexpectedly as an answer of the most expected question of your life and settled down with your life till eternity.

(∩•ω•∩)♬♡♡♡

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life

Eyes👀

Hey pretty soul,

Have you ever marked your eyes? 
Have you ever marked how remarkably deep they are? 
How charming and attractive they are? 
How soothing and loud they are?

Loads of stories are hidden there
Lots of memories were captured
In fact they capture with every passing moments

Plenty of emotions
Numerous code words
Millions signs
Trillions voices
Are hidden behind small small winks. 

If it’s possible
Hold the tears: jewels of eyes
To express themselves for worthy people and worthy emotions
And
Yes
Unworthy one never deserved them. 
. 
. 
o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

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life poetry

why there’s the new definition of love?

Why love is now all about
Undressing the person
Why it’s not about
Undress the mask

Why romance is all about the entwinning of body
Why now there’s lack of romance between souls
Why the right over each other is
now exhausting

Why now feelings are suffocating
Why emotions are these days are burden
Why controlling each other
is now the love definition

Why there’s trust issues
Why there’s ego problem
Why there’s lack of peace
With a structured frame
Why there’s the need proofs
And trust faith
Are there just like spoofs

Why being physical is the new definition of Love
Why emotional attachment
Trust values feelings respect
Are just for name?

Why?

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life love poetry

Human Home

Be with someone 
Who isn’t afraid 
to admit that
They have feelings for you. 

Someone who celebrate You
As his/her greatest joy
Someone who knows your imperfections
But love the real You. 

Before whom there’s no need you
To wear mask
Before whom there’s no need you
To hide things

Someone who fears to lose You
Someone who puts efforts for You
Someone who enjoys your craziness
With admiring your mature ness

Someone who says
I love you
And means it with all his/her heart

Be with someone for whom
You are not less than a home
Human Home. 

(∩•ω•∩)♬♡♡♡

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love self-love Uncategorized

YOU

Dear you, 

You’re the bunch of love

enclosed in a single word. 

You’re the worthy soul

Whose traces never get blurred. 

You’re the packet of craziness

You’re the collection of cheers

Why are you fell down today

You are the ray of inspiration

You’re searching these days. 

You’re the shine of Sun

You’re the peace of Moon

You’re the Flower of affection

Who born to bloom. 

You’re the arrangements of unsaids

You’re the voice of silence

Oh baby, it’s okay to be messed up

Cause morning comes after darky darkness. 

Baby you’re the untold story

You’re the summation of  lots of query

That’s why you are brave

&

Yes

YOU are one worded greatest poetry. 

❤

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Uncategorized

Be your own rainbow🌈

As long as I think someone will come and grab me from the clutches of all the negativities, of the darkness… A scenario of avoidance popped up on my mind. And suddenly I started panicking, I started trembling; trembling with fears. I started sweating, started murmuring. Such moments are no more than a battle; a battle with myself.
In such period no one get a certain knowledge about my conditions my behaviors at all.

Then I decided, I have to choose me, I have to be choosy. And it’s okay to be little selfish for your own happiness. It’s okay to be crazy like hell. It’s okay to be little childish. It’s okay to do your heart. Then a certain little cute smile drawn on my lips.

And I got my rainbow after the storm.

Ya, these days such things are so normal for me. But still I fear. Still I believe that I can overcome. I can chase the rainbow and preserve it in my life forever and ever.

Yeah I can.
#selflove

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letters life tales

When you can’t get over your feelings

It’s okay. It’s okay if someone is still in top of your priority list. Sometimes some people come and take a little part of your heart so silently and make it their permanent residence without any paperwork without your knowledge. And you have no other ways rather than feel the feelings.

With certain differences with lots of ifs and buts with little little fear your step get forward with such anonymous butterflies. You just want to fly. You just want to enjoy such feelings. But deep down you feared, feared so much. Still you just get tuned with the new musical vibes. You started enjoying lyrics and their meaning. Suddenly every love story seems like yours. Still you want a different touch in it. Ample amount of mini heart attacks when that someone passes you or by mistake encounters you, such tiny tiny unknowns feelings when by mistake looks get exchanged takes you to a unimaginable fairyland. Where without your knowledge, you just want to get lost in such world, but still fear is it right or not.


Then with lots of hopes, lots of courage, you just get yourself expressed in front of that one. Before you make yourself understand for any kind of answer. But when something despite your expectations come. Specially the silence, you just hang up between everything. Between your expectations, your heart attacks and heart aches your painful smiles and happy tears. You just lose your every ideas about certain aspects. You just hang up between moving forward in this direction or that. Suddenly it seems like your way is now seized and ended. Still you try. But back to back silence brakes you and breaks you.


Still you can’t get over the butterflies when you look at that one’s profile picture. Still you can’t listen bad about them, but it’s okay if you’re scolding. Still you get such unknown anonymous painful smiles and happy tears.


Darling it’s okay, sometimes such people come to make you realize that you can love so deeply so intensely so passionately. Don’t you think this time it’s needed to give such enormous love to yourself??


Think about it.

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letters life life tales

Directionless Traveler

I don’t know where i am? In the mid way of life, I am confused I am lost. I lost my identity,my reasons, to explain myself. slowly slowly might be I’m forgetting my values my virtues. Without values without virtues, what is the definition of human life?

Loving someone hard wouldn’t cost it. Cause Love teaches how to live. It teaches how to be alive in the short term life. In fact it is the mantra of life. But, how the mantra get toxic to me?

Like this there are lots of questions in front of me. How I got puzzled in the web of feelings? Where I didn’t want, need any relationships, how could get so trapped in the web of feelings? Is it wrong to feel ? or I choose a wrong one for me? or expecting something in return is my mistake?

In the dark web of such questions I am getting puzzled day by day. I am trying hard to get me. But I’m failing day by day. where and there I’m the culprit of myself as well as of my heart and brain. They always fight with themselves for a person who has no idea about the suffer. for whom they are just the combination of flesh, bone and blood.

False imaginations, intrusive thoughts, blasphemy now killing me everyday. Where I used to be a free bird, now I am the cage for myself. I scold myself, I hate myself, even I beat myself. Where I was so proud of my feelings, now I am ashamed of me. Every time I thought what is the reason behind it? That person or me? To make myself guilt-free,to console me I make that person responsible . But is that person really responsible for it? or my own unwanted expectations?

Where and there loving someone unexpectedly, I expected that one in my life for forever. I imagined him in every sour and sweet moments. Without his permission I made him partner of life and mate of soul. I get used to tell everything about every certain uncertain things of my life. In true words, slowly slowly i get addicted to that one. And dude, “addiction is always harmful”. That’s why I suffered and still suffering. I’m yelling for imagining bad. I’m screaming with blasphemous thoughts. I’m cursing myself everyday. I’m accusing that one as well as myself for that situation. In this journey of loving someone now I’m so far from myself.

I know I’m the culprit of my self-respect, of my self-esteem. Yet I make another one responsible for it to make the load of heart and mind light. Might be i’m wrong. But feeling for someone isn’t. I know expectation is wrong but Love is not.

Without hopes without conditions what will be the definition of something? Then I got something “A journey which has no destination, is destination for itself”.Some journey’s have no destination, still they continues with ups and downs, ifs and buts.

May be I’m the directionless traveler of that destined journey. Still hoping for a happy journey with happy destination.

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