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life

OCD: a toxic disorder

OCD: Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Whose fault is this? Why it occurs? How it captures the mind? And many more questions.

Does anybody anyone question about it?

Ya it’s not a Cancer but it’s not less than that. OCD comes silently. Very silently. Shhhhh….. Pin drop silence inside the mind. But outside, outside; Chaos of every kind. Suffering of every kind. Tension of every kind. Failure, failure; in studies, in communication, in self presentation, in exploring yourself, exploring life, failure in love life, failure in looking good, failure in curricular activities. Disappointment of self, disappointment of parents. Harsh words just play in repeat mode inside the mind.

Earthquake, tsunami, low pressure, high pressure, tornado ; every kind of hazardous things just taken place inside your mind. The whirlwind of intrusive thoughts never let you be calm. The magma of obsessive thought drowns you deeper. You only get suffocated. Every ounce of your heart get choked. With every beat of heart you crave for peace. And peace just play different kinds of game with you to come you. Like a druggist searches for drugs. You search for peace. You search for sleep. But sleep, sleep slaps on your face and bid farewell to you.

Somehow if you get sleep the venomous dreams won’t let you sleep peacefully. If you want to read good books, the poisonous thought toxicate everything. Cyclone super cyclone of thoughts shake you terrible.

You shiver…

You quiver…

You yell

Loud…..

Louder…..

For someone come and save you.

Something inside you killing you badly. Something inside you stabbing you badly. But you’re unable to find out. You’re unable to find out the reason behind reasons. The question among questions. Again confusion. What is the question? What is the answer? And why is the question?

After asking enormous questions to self , after getting lots of answers yet you don’t get the answer. You just suffer

Just suffer

Just suffer

But the puzzled mind never stops thinking. We can say in a different way, thoughts never let mind to be stopped.

(It’s just a kind request to everyone, whenever you see anyone with OCD, just pat him/her and say them; It’s just a disease. And lend them a hand to stand up and move on.)

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life

Eyes👀

Hey pretty soul,

Have you ever marked your eyes? 
Have you ever marked how remarkably deep they are? 
How charming and attractive they are? 
How soothing and loud they are?

Loads of stories are hidden there
Lots of memories were captured
In fact they capture with every passing moments

Plenty of emotions
Numerous code words
Millions signs
Trillions voices
Are hidden behind small small winks. 

If it’s possible
Hold the tears: jewels of eyes
To express themselves for worthy people and worthy emotions
And
Yes
Unworthy one never deserved them. 
. 
. 
o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

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life poetry

why there’s the new definition of love?

Why love is now all about
Undressing the person
Why it’s not about
Undress the mask

Why romance is all about the entwinning of body
Why now there’s lack of romance between souls
Why the right over each other is
now exhausting

Why now feelings are suffocating
Why emotions are these days are burden
Why controlling each other
is now the love definition

Why there’s trust issues
Why there’s ego problem
Why there’s lack of peace
With a structured frame
Why there’s the need proofs
And trust faith
Are there just like spoofs

Why being physical is the new definition of Love
Why emotional attachment
Trust values feelings respect
Are just for name?

Why?

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Uncategorized

Be your own rainbow🌈

As long as I think someone will come and grab me from the clutches of all the negativities, of the darkness… A scenario of avoidance popped up on my mind. And suddenly I started panicking, I started trembling; trembling with fears. I started sweating, started murmuring. Such moments are no more than a battle; a battle with myself.
In such period no one get a certain knowledge about my conditions my behaviors at all.

Then I decided, I have to choose me, I have to be choosy. And it’s okay to be little selfish for your own happiness. It’s okay to be crazy like hell. It’s okay to be little childish. It’s okay to do your heart. Then a certain little cute smile drawn on my lips.

And I got my rainbow after the storm.

Ya, these days such things are so normal for me. But still I fear. Still I believe that I can overcome. I can chase the rainbow and preserve it in my life forever and ever.

Yeah I can.
#selflove

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letters life tales

When you can’t get over your feelings

It’s okay. It’s okay if someone is still in top of your priority list. Sometimes some people come and take a little part of your heart so silently and make it their permanent residence without any paperwork without your knowledge. And you have no other ways rather than feel the feelings.

With certain differences with lots of ifs and buts with little little fear your step get forward with such anonymous butterflies. You just want to fly. You just want to enjoy such feelings. But deep down you feared, feared so much. Still you just get tuned with the new musical vibes. You started enjoying lyrics and their meaning. Suddenly every love story seems like yours. Still you want a different touch in it. Ample amount of mini heart attacks when that someone passes you or by mistake encounters you, such tiny tiny unknowns feelings when by mistake looks get exchanged takes you to a unimaginable fairyland. Where without your knowledge, you just want to get lost in such world, but still fear is it right or not.


Then with lots of hopes, lots of courage, you just get yourself expressed in front of that one. Before you make yourself understand for any kind of answer. But when something despite your expectations come. Specially the silence, you just hang up between everything. Between your expectations, your heart attacks and heart aches your painful smiles and happy tears. You just lose your every ideas about certain aspects. You just hang up between moving forward in this direction or that. Suddenly it seems like your way is now seized and ended. Still you try. But back to back silence brakes you and breaks you.


Still you can’t get over the butterflies when you look at that one’s profile picture. Still you can’t listen bad about them, but it’s okay if you’re scolding. Still you get such unknown anonymous painful smiles and happy tears.


Darling it’s okay, sometimes such people come to make you realize that you can love so deeply so intensely so passionately. Don’t you think this time it’s needed to give such enormous love to yourself??


Think about it.

Categories
motivation

⭐

yes, I am broken

shattered

scattered

.

.

but with broken wings

and choked fellow

feelings

I’m learning to find

peace in pieces

happiness in moments

bliss in solitary

tranquility in chaos

life in every heartbeats

I’m learning to start

again

to live again…… 

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poetry

Cave of night🌃

From far: Peaceful, so calm, so quite… 

From near: Fear, frustration, dreadful dim light..

For some: A solitude filled with bliss , So far from everyday hiss

For some: Devil’s well; where to live, You have to die again and again

For whom: A warm hug, Two glass Champaign, And a beautiful 2 am talk

For whom: Aloneness, anxiety, an extra Sleepless night , and Walk in room like a ghost. 

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letters

A letter to the one who has no one to listen….

To the one who has no one to listen;

Sometimes, you have lots of stuffs to say. That time you not only get puzzled with such unsaid but also it eats you on daily basis. That time all you need someone listen to you. It’s seriously so pity when you don’t get anyone to hear you out.

I know how it hurts when you have lots of stuff so to say, but there’s no one to even listen, understand is far enough. You seriously need someone who will listen you and tell you that you’re not alone. You’re not the only one who just stay happy that no one have any idea about your cringe nightmare and loose points. With the confused mind and confused heart you just get messed up day by day. Don’t worry it’s just normal confusion like choosing between a bad person with handsome/beautiful face and good person with average look.

Just say yourself, it’s your break time and remember one thing, it’s okay to being alone. If there’s no one to understand you, there’s also no one to misunderstand you. Being alone can be the best and worst at same time. It’s okay, if you are diplomatic. Take your time. Understand yourself. But don’t forget to ask for help when you need when you want.

In this phase we all are same. We all seek attention. But fails to express, hesitate to explain. We are all in the clutch of such negativity. But it’s upto us, what we choose. There will be someone near you; just like you. Just go, search and exchange thoughts. This time we all worthy of it.

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Someone so like you

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