It’s okay. It’s okay if someone is still in top of your priority list. Sometimes some people come and take a little part of your heart so silently and make it their permanent residence without any paperwork without your knowledge. And you have no other ways rather than feel the feelings.
With certain differences with lots of ifs and buts with little little fear your step get forward with such anonymous butterflies. You just want to fly. You just want to enjoy such feelings. But deep down you feared, feared so much. Still you just get tuned with the new musical vibes. You started enjoying lyrics and their meaning. Suddenly every love story seems like yours. Still you want a different touch in it. Ample amount of mini heart attacks when that someone passes you or by mistake encounters you, such tiny tiny unknowns feelings when by mistake looks get exchanged takes you to a unimaginable fairyland. Where without your knowledge, you just want to get lost in such world, but still fear is it right or not.
Then with lots of hopes, lots of courage, you just get yourself expressed in front of that one. Before you make yourself understand for any kind of answer. But when something despite your expectations come. Specially the silence, you just hang up between everything. Between your expectations, your heart attacks and heart aches your painful smiles and happy tears. You just lose your every ideas about certain aspects. You just hang up between moving forward in this direction or that. Suddenly it seems like your way is now seized and ended. Still you try. But back to back silence brakes you and breaks you.
Still you can’t get over the butterflies when you look at that one’s profile picture. Still you can’t listen bad about them, but it’s okay if you’re scolding. Still you get such unknown anonymous painful smiles and happy tears.
Darling it’s okay, sometimes such people come to make you realize that you can love so deeply so intensely so passionately. Don’t you think this time it’s needed to give such enormous love to yourself??
Think about it.
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